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We HAVE ALL been there. Those days of sheer frustration. Things don’t always go as planned, in life, or in mommyhood. Take a deep breath because…. that’s OKAY.

Anyone who has had little ones knows there are days when the sun is shining through every inch of their skin like if they ate the sun, happy as can be. Then .. there’s those days where they can be compared to a crawling, walking, babbling miniature gremlins. BUT HEY we all have our good and bad days !! Sometimes I really don’t know how I am going to get through the day or hold myself together long enough for Hayli’s dad to come home and have some actual human interaction besides baby talk babbling and “Finding Dory”.

DISCLAIMER: I love my daughter, more than anyone else in this world. I want nothing but the best for her and I want nothing more then to be the best mommy to her! I am more than sure there a few of you can relate !

 

ON THOSE DAYS

On those days where I am holding on to every last ounce of my patience for dear life

 

I just think how she needs me more than ever now, as she is  learning, growing and she needs the reassurance that someone is there. MOM is here, and always will be. No matter how many things I need to get done, how much of a mess my house is or how much of a break I need for myself, if she needs me, I will drop everything for her. Whether its a tantrum now, at her first school game, her first fall off of a bike, her first heartbreak, for ANYTHING I am here.

I am the one who will teach her what love, patience, and comfort is, well her dad and I. For now, I am with her all day, every day. These are the moments that I am going to cherish for the rest of my days. Its important to STOP and live the moment with her.

CRAWL around with your babies, play hide and seek, do things THEY LOVE. Get down to their level, into their little WORLD. You have no idea how much they need that, to feel like you are there for the good as much as the bad. And how much they will LOVE it.

 

I crawled with Hayli the other day, (Yes i got down and spent half an hour chasing her around the house, and letting her chase me) you have no IDEA how much that little girl laughed, and how excited she was.

Yesterday Hayli girl was sleeping so peacefully in her crib after having a rough afternoon, I couldn’t help myself but to get in with her. She woke a few minutes later when she heard her dad come home, but she woke up to me. She did a whole double take, like if she couldn’t believe it and just started laughing and hugging me. She wont remember that one day, she probably already forgot. I didn’t, I never will.

But the feeling of joy that gave her, will ALWAYS be there. And one day she will be able to understand more than she does now, that for anything she can come to her momma.

 

 

DAYCARE? DO OR DONT

I have to admit, Ive been lucky. Since my pregnancy I really, havent worked. As soon as the baby was born I was a stay at home mom, and I LOVE IT! Recently, I was feeling a bit crazy being stuck in the house with no form of my own income so I set out to find a job. My only dilemma…DAYCARE. What a nightmare of a thought, my little girl basically being raised by someone else with other kids of her age and who knows if she was going to get the attention and care she so much needs. While I was checking out a daycare in the area, the Administrator offered me a position in the daycare, along with schooling to get certified! I was so happy, a job that I can see and spend time with my Hayli all day?! WHILE going to school?! UM WHERE DO I SIGN?!

About two weeks into working at the daycare, I started realizing a few things, a few…red flags. ALOT happens in daycares and it happens QUICK! Kids are miniature Houdini’s with their size to their advantage! It isnt the teachers fault all the time things REALLY DO happen in the matter of a few seconds. Granted, when you have 10 one year olds all under your care at once, its pretty difficult to keep your eyes on them ALL while you are trying to keep every diaper clean, the classroom in order and trying to get some form of knowledge into them whether its counting or colors! 

Teachers DO pick favorites and some kids DO get special treatment. As much as they deny it it, IT HAPPENS. Sometimes because of the parents, kids get treated differently. ITS NOT FAIR. And it sucks because we believe we’re putting our kids somewhere fair, safe and healthy but these ages is where most behavioral issues begin! 

It is great on the fact that some teachers DO teach. They do their part the best to their abilities to teach the kids at their level and kids DO learn. In that aspect, its great, 

I did love it when I started, but I noticed a few things that I really didnt like, especially with my own daughter involved I wasnt going to stay and watch. I mean there wasnt ONE DAY that Hayli didnt come home with a new scratch, bitemark, or bruise, or SOMETHING. I understand things happen but I’ve taken care of her for almost a year at home and she’s only had 1 major diaper rash. The day she got in there until now 2 weeks later is when its finally healing. She is picking up behaviors of the other kids, becoming a MAJOR BRAT and I do not want to deal with a huge brat at the age of 1. She is like a whole new baby I miss my nice little girl!! 

Im not all that sure if it all weighs out for me. So now, Im back home! Considering maybe taking Hayli to another daycare and working OR trying to find my own way to make money right here at home, with my girl.  

I see these mommy bloggers making what seems like tons of money from home doing what they love! What is the secret?! I just want to be able to make some type of income while taking care of my home, hubby and baby! How do moms get these brand rep and ambassador gigs?! How can I start a successfull youtube channel?! I have so many questions!!!