Here’s to Adulthood

Growing up I always pictured my 21st birthday to be a pretty reckless event. I mean, full of friends, liquor and a huge hangover the next day. Last year I spent my 21st Birthday 6 months pregnant, drinking a virgin Piña Colada. Today, there is no escaping it, I am really no longer a teenager. I spent my 22nd Birthday with my hubby and baby girl and couldn’t be any happier eating my Ice cream cake surrounded by family and friends.

Here’s to adulthood. What I’ve come to realize is that it’s all the little things. Having a quiet moment to yourself, a clean house, laundry done, dishes clean and dinner ready. Simple things that bring some peace of mind in a moms world.

At 22 the things that I seem to catch myself day dreaming about are the new appliances due to arrive to my house this weekend. A new fridge, washer and dryer. Why am I so excited about these things? I opened my Etsy shop today, something that before, I wouldn’t have really cared about, here I am today hoping for a successful Shop, a beginning to my entrepreneurial carrier.

I blew out my birthday candles and I realized after, that I hadn’t made a wish. Not to crawl up the corny tree but everything I could have wished for, I thankfully have. My healthy daughter, a great relationship with my best friend, friends and family around me. I didn’t make a wish but a simple thank you, to blow out my candles. Thank you because things are finally seeming to go so right.

So here’s to adulthood, where it’s all the little things that make up the big things. 🎂

Postpartum Depression and Hair

Its been quite awhile since I last posted, took a bit of a breather from everything almost. Sometimes natural disasters have their way of putting people where they belong. In my case, Hurricane Irma just sucked, moved my life around a bit but couldn’t get me out of the keys 😋

After pregnancy and giving birth, I felt like I had lost myself. Got caught in what seemed to be like somewhat of a postpartum depression. I didn’t care what I looked like, I would forget to eat, or shower, everything was about the new baby, and I put myself last on the list. I felt like I didn’t have an identity anymore. I was just a mom, and I didn’t matter. My life was turning into a blur. I loved being a mom, it’s all I’d ever wanted. I would wake up and just experience the same cycle, no one is ever prepared for the way your life changes. I mean, everyone tells you, but you don’t really fully grasp what they say until you experience it for yourself. The highs and the lows. Your heart has never felt such love, your life has never seen such a beautiful reason, but your body has never felt such aches and pains, and your mind has never been so anxious and an emotional carnival. I lost sight of myself and I noticed it was taking a toll on everything. On me, my daughter, my relationship, my whole life really. People don’t realize how serious postpartum can get. Until one day I woke up and realized It was enough, I had to snap the fuck outta that one, make a change, and commit. And the only way I was going to begin acting the way my mind was thinking. It was the best way I know how to refresh myself, the woman’s right of passage into figuring out who they are, I died my hair. From my natural dirty blonde hair, I went to really, really blonde. I kept looking at myself in the mirror and kept thinking, blondes are too nice. DISCLAIMER I’m naturally a blonde and I want to return to blonde one day. I have nothing whatsoever against blondes. But it makes me the nice girl; it’s impossible for me to have made that change being an innocent, blonde. I mean, my mind, my body was asking for something a bit more drastic. so I went red. Fire bomb red, take no shit red, cliche as it sounds, my life changed all over again the moment I looked in the mirror after I saw my new look.

Since then I died it down to a wine red, but a change of scenery, if you will, was all I needed. Well that and ofcourse my heavy addiction to coffee to keep me awake throughout my daily adventures with my not so little baby girl.

I give it to you moms, who have dealt with, and are dealing with postpartum, sometimes it’s not as easy as just dying your hair, or taking a day off. It’s some serious business and I hope you each find your own healthy outlet to get you back to yourself !! As women we are strong and if we can deal with our children, pregnancy, child birth, and our husbands, we can get over any other obstacles! 💪🏻

2 much going on!

Im horrible I haven’t posted in days 😦 So heres a few things

So thankful my mom was able to watch Hayli during our mini-vacay last weekend but lord I can tell she didn’t put her down for 1 second! This baby has had some serious issues with being put down for even the SLIGHTEST of moments WTF! (Sorry mom) She was NEVER like this!!! Trying to get her back to normal has proven its difficulty and I just wonder how some moms do it when they have babies that HAVE to be in there arms 24/7! HOW DO YOU DO IT?!

Well this weekend Hayli’s big brother Damian is here!! And there’s HORRIBLE weather so we’ve been hunkering down in this houseboat watching movies and laughing at Youtube videos all day. I’ll never get over how kids now a days know their ENTIRE way around Youtube! I can literally give him my phone and he’ll get on Youtube and find his favorite Spiderman videos, same goes for his cousin Khloe she does the same thing! LOL I can barely ever find what Im looking for on Youtube WTH!!? I need them to teach me a few things! I love how when he is here, the house finally feels full, in a sense of family, there’s nothing missing when he is here. Full bed, full kitchen table, full smiles. I don’t think I will EVER get over watching Hayli and Damian, he has always been a trip, but it is SO funny when Hayli is screaming crying next to me and he tells me.. she is crying! This has only just begun and I cannot wait to watch them grow up together. All she does is look at him and smile and giggle. When he’s not in sight she will literally look for him she is in love with her big brother and Im in love with that. ❤

HALLOWEEN is almost here ya’ll and I cannot contain myself! I have 2 costume ideas for Hayli and cannot decide from Minnie Mouse OR giant Strawberry!! LMFAO on second thought…saying that out loud… I think I know which one Im going to go with.. Hopefully next year we have Damian for Halloween! Leo and I want to do a whole family themed costumes we’re thinking Peter Pan, Cpt Hook, Tinker, and Wendy, The Incredible’s or Superhero’s which Im pretty sure Damian would be more into the Superheros but it depends mostly on what he’ll be into a year from now 🙂

OKOK BABY FOOD!

I almost have everything checked off on my list to have Hayli try before I start making her homemade puree’s! I wanted to buy them and try little by little what she would like, instead of making it and having to throw anything away in the case she wouldn’t like it or have any allergic reaction. So Im looking for recipe’s and will be posting what I (try) to make and how it goes! Although my Cuban mother and grandmother will probably be sending me tons of puree, I want to make some of my own 🙂 If there are any suggestions or if you want me to try them before you do, send me a message and I  will be more than willing to try it out! Well I have to clean the house and make dinner since both kids are asleep its perfect time to do that pretty peacefully

In the next couple days I will be posting baby food recipe’s and the outcomes!!

Comment or message me any ideas!!!